Sunday, 19 August 2012

Miserable and eighteen.

So I thought since I am turning eighteen soon; and considering that it is conventional for me to be thrilled for that to happen, I decided to do a "Things to do before I turn eighteen" list.
Considering that I have less than 4 months left for that to happen, I expect this list to be extremely short. More so, I lack excitement when it comes to aging.
Here's why.
I honestly do not believe that when I turn 18, maturity will out-of-the-blue sink in.The most accurate example being my own sisters; I feel like a 60-year-old between them. Either way, I suppose we do have to live with these demented rules. I suppose I also have to fake some excitement while we're at it. Sadly, it is the social convention.
I'll tell you why I hate being older.
 As a generally petite person, I always have to get on with people thinking I am twelve or thirteen. It aggravates me so dearly, but at some point, I got tired of getting mad at others for this. I mean, they have these kind of minds which judge upon what they see. I have to pity them. Feel sorry for them, not loathe them. Sadly, not everyone is as developed.
Enough blabbering and onto the list.
Things that I should do before I turn 18:
1. I thought this would flow by the time I got to number one. Ergh, I guess not.
Usually these kind of lists include egging someones house, sleeping with someones boyfriend yada yada yay...
Quite frankly, all I want to do is sit down, listen to John Mayer, sing out-loud and off-tune. I was hoping to do the same thing on my birthday but I know for sure that my sisters will use it as an excuse to throw a fucking party.
All I want is a peaceful night at the beach and oreo cake.
How hard is it for that to happen?
I'll be miserable AND eighteen.

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