A casual Thursday afternoon rant

You know how some people say that if they had to chance to do everything all over again they wouldn't? I say they're bullshitters.
I, with no hesitation, will lunge at an opportunity to make a few tweaks in my life. I guess you can judge me to be an unhappy person, but no. I am not unhappy. There are certain just aspects and phases of my life that I wish I never went through, and some I wish I did but with a different "me." The "me" that I am today or was 2 weeks ago.
I know it seems like a fairly complex idea. Okay not "seems," it IS a not-so-fairly complex idea, but I can't help but think like that sometimes. I wish I know someone who thinks this way, too. I know there are people who think so too, but they're too afraid to admit the fact that their life isn't perfect.

 

I am sorry, Martians.

This post is an apologetic post.

I am here to apologize to my blog for my lack of care and my absence.

I'd also like to apologize to the mini kangaroo-panda hybrids that read my blog. Residents of Mars, I am sorry for my carelessness. 

Now that summer's approaching, I will hopefully be able to post regularly. 

 

Thought.

Hesitation is not a sign of weakness. It is the indicator of consciousness, a craving for enlightenment and wisdom. Hesitant people get the opportunity to think through things thoroughly, while others lunge to make ill-advised decisions.

Conformity.

Conformity robs you of your character. Devote your life to self-empowerment, as the only person who can define your worth is you.

Untitled.

You know when you try your best to ignore a certain feeling? You push and push and push it away, but at some point it overpowers you and you are no longer capable of pushing. That feeling is vulnerability.

It leaves you exposed, an easy target of mockery. To others, you are an open book, predictable and uninteresting.

The feeling can defeat you when you’re alone or even worse—when others surround you. You try so hard to disguise that feeling. “Remember to smile occasionally, look up. Don’t slouch!”

As soon as you get home, you collapse onto your bed.

You don’t cry. Instead, you stare blankly into the blue patterns of your sheets and ruffle around your cover.

You tell yourself that just because you feel that way, it doesn’t mean that you’re weak. No. It’s more a reassurance that you are not cold and heartless.

No, you’re human and you feel just like everyone else.

One can lift their head up high only for so long. At some moment, your neck will ache and you’ll need to stretch it.

This is me stretching the neck of my life. Soon enough, I’ll be strong enough to lift my head up high again.  

Deforming Souls?

The one human emotion that I think we tend to underestimate is not love, anger or joy.
It is sympathy. Once you sympathize another, they behold a power over you. A power that can make you turn right or left. A power that grips your brain and penetrates it to reach your soul. From that, you are no longer yourself. You become part of a community of feelings. Your sense of selfishness is erased completely. It is then replaced by a romanticized unity.
Those who master inflicting such emotions on others hold control over people's sanity, rationality and life decisions. The sole problem is that if one can evoke such an emotion on another, they grasp a soul they are able to twist, twist and twist..

Beautiful quote.